| Location | Hampshire |
| Age | 21 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 10/05/1978 |
| Date of Death | 18/04/2000 |
| Visitors | 4,901 since 06/08/2008 |
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Paul Michael Cowell , My lovely son took his own
life on 18th April 2000 ,22 days before his 22nd birthday after battling a drug problem. He had not
taken any for 6 months before he died but stopping left him with depressions and it was as he
appeared to be coming out of one of these that he took his life on prescription drugs. Paul wasn't a
lad That hung around in groups indeed he was small and looked younger than he was. We moved next
door to a couple with a son and daughter when paul was 8 years old . Paul knew their son since
playschool and he was only 4 months older than paul. They were friends but not best friends. When
they left school there was a leavers party but paul did not go because he was working in a hotel as
he wanted to eventually become a chef. The lad next door was killed that night chased onto a
railway and killed by a train he was only 16. I could not imagine the suffering so I used to go
round and clean there home, shop for them and cut their grass. I also just used to sit with his
mother while she cried. Paul was a sensitive soul and he had never been this close to a terrible
death of one so young and used to go round to see them too. He then began to change and eventually
i found out that the drugs were causing his behaviour and used to tell next door about it . They
just said it was attention seeking but he was so ill . A lot of the young friends used to go next
door and was encouraged by his parents. For 5 years We watched him go down to the depths of
despair and i used to talk to next door about him being so ill then one day paul actually asked me
for help after so long of being turned away from help because it was me that wanted help for him
not him. One day while next door paul came round and later as we left i noticed the mother slip
something in his hand and when we got outside i asked paul to show me what it was and he opened his
hand and laying in his palm were drugs. it was them all the time. they are convicted drug dealers
and No one had ever told me . But I learned this too late to save my son. We miss him , we miss his
lovely sunny smile and his caring ways . David his younger brother was only 15 at the time now has a
beautiful 3 year old daughter Emily who Paul would have loved and been so proud of. David has
struggled so hard with this loss as we all have including his Nan and Grandad who loved him so also
. Paul worked at a fruit farm right up until his death after leaving the catering business .
Sometimes Paul would miss the transport to take him to work and he would walk the 6 miles to get
there , sometimes his suffering was too much and he did not make it that day . His boss was
brilliant and understanding and also in our hearts we knew the drugs has caused so much damage .
paul really tried to make a fresh start . He is with his Great Nan who passed away 19 months before
Paul aged 85 years . She was so understanding about this problem and showed so much love and care
towards him I like to think that they are caring for each other whilst waiting for us. God bless Nan
and thank you xxxxxxxxxxxxx
REFLECTION
Another day for you to wonder,another day for you to mourn
It wasn't my intention to go before the coming dawn
My pain was deep within my heart and troubled head
It wasn't my intention to go without words said.
My frame of mind seemed normal, or so I heard them say
It wasn't my intention not to see another day
I did not mean to make you suffer or cause you so much pain
It wasn't my intention to never see you again.
Despair and confusion left my aching mind unsure
It wasn't my intention to suddenly close life's door
If only I could give you reasons and brush the tears away
It wasn't my intention to leave you and not stay.
I did not mean for you to grieve, now left alone to cry
It wasn't my intention to leave you, forever asking why ?
As the burdens of life's worries slowly ebb from my heart
It wasn't my intention to tear your soul apart.
Y Docherty
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LIN SENDS EVERYONE HER APOLOGIES BUT RIGHT NOW SHE IS HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME.
YOU ARE ALL IN HER THOUGHTS AND SHE WILL BE BACK VERY SOON. THANK YOU. ****
XXX MY HEARTS WITH YOU ALLWAYS AND FOREVER XXX
LOVE CAROL XXXX
Through the gentle breeze and the stormy seas
Your love comes flooding through
A sense of your surroundings
Letting us know that it is you
A heavenly sky with sparkling flames
Becomes visible in the skies
Appearing is your shadows
As you turned to wave goodbye
A mellow whisper in my ear
Thanking all for whats been done
And letting us know that youre ok
As you glide towards the sun
No matter what the outcome
No matter how much we cried
You're letting us know that your still here
It was only the body that died
For your memory holds no boundaries
Everyday it is kept alive
Its gives us warmth and energy
That encourages our days to thrive
Just keep on remembering me
In your shadows I'll walk with you
And guide you through your darkest hours
In everything you say or do
For absence cannot be changed for us
We accept what had to be done
We cannot change the wishes of God
If he wants you to be the one
When you reach the golden promised land
And the gates are open wide
It will be there you'll find great comfort
And your tears you'll try to hide
As you settle in your new found world
You'll send us a glittering prize
It will brighten up the darkest day
And bring a tear to our eyes
Thankyou for your presence
And for all the memories too
You left this world something beautiful
It was the fact that we had you
FRIENDS
Friends are like Angels
Friends are like Angels
Who brighten our days.
In all kinds of wonderful,
Magical ways.
Their thoughtfulness comes,
As a gift from above.
And we feel we're surrounded,
By warm, caring love.
Like upside-down rainbows,
Their smiles bring the sun.
And they fill ho-hum moments,
With laughter and fun.
Friends are like angels,
Without any wings.
Blessing our lives,
With the most precious things.
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THANK YOU FOR ALL LOVELY TRIBUTES & LIGHTING CANDLES IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME
LOVE ALWAYS NICKY XXXXX
xX Thank You For Everything Lin Xx
Life is too short to wake up with regret
So love the people who treat you right
Forget about the ones who don’t believe
Everything happens for a reason
If you get a second chance grab it with both hands
If it changes your life let it
No one said life would be easy
They just promised it would be worth it
Send this to a special friend
I just did.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the love and support you give, it really does mean more than I could ever tell you.
Love from my little fairy and me Xx
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always and forever in my thoughts
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thankyou for everything you do
godbless you all
all my love linda davies. xxx
I took a little time today,
to reminisce of yesterday.
To review our lives in the past
recorded here in photographs.
As I page through the years,
Sometimes I shed many tears.
For the loved one I have known,
And all the love that was sown.
Sometimes it's hard to realize,
when all spread out before my eyes,
With all the pictures that I took,
our whole lives are in this book.
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Remember
REMEMBER ME
Remember me whenever you see a sunrise,
Remember me whenever you see a star,
Remember me whenever you see a rainbow
Or woods in autumn colors from afar.
Remember me whenever you see the roses
Or seagulls sailing high in a sky of blue.
Remember me whenever you see waves
Shining in the sun. And remember,
I'll be remembering you!
Remember me whenever you see a teardrop,
Or meadows still wet with the morning dew.
Remember me whenever you feel love
Growing in your heart.
And remember, I'll be remembering you
With love Shirley, & family of Dan O'Hare.
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Dear Paul...
There's a whistle up in heaven,
and it wasn't there before.
And all the angels heard it
when you knocked on Heaven's door.
Now Heaven is a better place
than what it was before,
and our lives are less without you...
now and forever more.
Love and God Bless
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Thank you for everything my friend xxx
Thank you to you: for who you are,
However far away;
And for the words you send to me,
so kind in what you say.
Knowing simply that you're there,
Yet thinking much of me,
Opens up my happiness,
when i read what you write to me.
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Just Letting You Know
You Mean The World To Me
Lots Of Love carol xxx
thinking of you allways xxx
IM THINKING OF YOU
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Friends are like flowers
Each unique in their own way
Put them all together
What a wonderful bouquet
Some are really brilliant
Full of light sharp and clear
While others are more subdued
To both you can adhere
You are a flower in my garden
That makes up my bouquet
My friends you all make
A very impressive display
With Love From carol x x x x
sending this message with love and thinking of you allways and forever god bless you allways love carol quinn stewart mum xxx
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